I hate my class. A whole big bunch of smart ass-es. urgh.

The average of my class' L1R5 is 9--10. What the heck. And the worst of the lot is like 13? (Oh yes, this crazy nut who came in using 'rugby' for 1st 3 months with 34 pts. ended up with 31 pts. for 'O's...but he can be counted out I guess). OK, I am so bloody jealous. Imagine being in a class where 5 out of 10 people tell you they've gotten 9/10, 2 out of 10 tell you they've gotten 7/8, and when you are about to rejoice that the rest got 11--13, you realise they have like 3--4 bonus pts. so they all somehow qualify for some premier schools. Kill me.

Yes, my dream came through that the turnover rate is going to be bloody high, since only 4 people intend to stay in NY, that is, these 2 non-Singaporean guys that already took their 'O's last year, a repeat student, and yours truly. Great. ALL THE REST ARE GOING ELSEWHERE AND I SHOULD BE REJOICING BUT I AM FEELING SO 'SOUR GRAPES' NOW. It's just that you see all of them in school everyday, being kiddish and immature and unexposed to little things; sometimes incompetent in presentations or project work, yet when it comes to academic results, they fare so much better.

I'm beginning to feel inferior. I know I shouldn't be.
But when the truth dumps itself at me;
My hopes all start to wither.